Well, that was cheery…

So!  Since I am not one to roll around in a doom & gloom cloud, what have I been doing this month besides feeling morose & then telling the internets about it?

I am detoxing! But not one of those crazy detox things where you only eat grapefruits and vinegar and raw vegetables for a couple weeks.

This is a fairly sensible detox. It’s a 30 day program, and in weeks 1 & 2,  you work on cutting back caffeine, alcohol, sugar, wheat & dairy; in week 3, you completely eliminate those five things, and then in the last 9 days, you slowly add them back in – in moderation – to reach a balanced you.  There is also a daily yoga/meditation practice, and each week, a different beverage. This week (week 1!) it has been an apple cider vinegar & lemon beverage. Not a fan, really.

Each day has individual goals, as well, but I am starting small, and trying really hard not to be an all or nothing person (more on that in a bit).

I’ve been great at drinking my icky lemon drink every morning.

I haven’t had any caffeine since last Saturday.

I’ve cut waaaaay back on my sugar intake, have been eating whole foods.

Next week, the focus is on dairy & wheat, so I haven’t done too much with that yet, but I don’t eat a lot of dairy, anyways (only cheese!), so that, at least shouldn’t be an issue.

We won’t talk about the alcohol today.

I yoga’d and meditated on Sunday, Monday & Tuesday. Wednesday (day of the big whiny post), I did not. I felt crappy all day.

Thursday, I got up & went to the Yin + Vinyasa class at yoga pearl, taught by my new favorite yoga instructor.

Today, I can barely walk. Those low lunges kicked my ass. Seriously. My ass hurts so bad. It hurts to walk. It hurts to stand. It hurts to sit. Also sore? My adductor muscles.

I did not yoga today, but I did run (or walk/run), so I’m counting that as a win.

So – all in all, not bad, right?

EXCEPT – I am not hitting all my goals! I mean, as of Tuesday, I’d lost 3 lbs, but I’m not following all the rules! And going 100%! And I am not a person interested in doing less than 100%.

In the two-hour talk about the detox program that I attended last week, Tiffany (who wrote the detox book & presented the information, and who is a seriously scary yogi) said that it didn’t have to be all or nothing. You would still get benefits by doing SOME. But how can that be true? How can doing only SOME be good enough?

This is something I struggle with in all aspects of my life. If I can’t do it all, I often feel that it’s not worth doing. This leads to a lot of abandoned projects. This also leads to great frustration with running/injuries/etc.

It will come as no shock to those who know me well, but I am a wee bit OCD. I have spreadsheets for everything. My life is organized and regimented. And I have no room for things that don’t stick to the schedule.

So – what happens when my schedule is disrupted?

My whole day is shot.

What’s the point of doing the next half dozen things on my to-do list if I everything is pushed back 30  minutes. Or an hour. If I have to skip one thing, might as well skip them all. And you know what would be a good idea to do instead of (1) homework, (2) going to the gym (3) making dinner?

I know! I’ll mope on my computer, play stupid, time-consuming games, and drink a giant beer! That’ll help!

So – one thing I really want to work on this year is flexibility.

I’ll probably have to meditate on that….

One response to “Well, that was cheery…

  1. I will become scarier as the months pass…I actually pulled that move last week (although against the wall, which isn’t as fierce) – niralamba sirsasana (no hands headstand!).

    Glad you’re keeping up with 2011. ‘Twil be a good year.