Today is a very high-anxiety day. Chest-crushing anxiety. (I don’t know why. That happens a lot.)
Thanks to last week, in which I hit 85% of my exercise goals, I know the proper ways to start treating this anxiety.
I have my swim stuff in my bag (and, unlike last week, I packed a comb, flip flops, am charging my swim watch, and brought my goggles instead of the Bean’s). Tomorrow, I will run. Wednesday, I will yoga. Thursday, I will run. Friday, I will swim. And Saturday, I will run.
If I hit 5 of those, I’ll be happy. Even if I don’t get to my time/distance goals on each one, I’ll still be happy to get out there. (Friday, I didn’t hit my swimming goal, and was extremely frustrated until I remembered that it was my first time in the pool in a year and swimming 500 yards was better than all the swims I haven’t done. Some is better than none. I should probably get that tattooed on the backs of my hands and my forehead or something.)
Other things I am doing in the way of self-care include:
- Eating healthy and regular meals
- Getting back into the habit of meditating
- Reframing my life into positive “I am” statements. (“I am a runner” NOT “I used to run more.” “I am an author” NOT “I write but still have to have a day job.”
Since I have trips planned to Mexico (October) and Spain (March), I also need to really dig into my Spanish refreshers again. I minored in Spanish in college, but haven’t kept up the practice. I could probably skate by with my limited skills and the fact that people everywhere speak English, but I’d rather make the effort – and since Bean didn’t get into the dual-language school, I want to start doing more Spanish at home so he at least has a shot at a foreign language while his brains are still malleable.
(Speaking of brains, I was texting with my PSM this morning and we decided that it was monumentally unfair that one person could have both a defective brain and a defective reproductive system. You should really only have to be stuck with one of those. Although, I guess since she and I are both graced with both breath-taking beauty and dazzling intelligence, maybe this is the trade-off?)
I’ll leave you with a picture of my adorable Bean who’s been at the coast with grandma since Thursday.